I agreed on doing a photoshoot yesterday with a friend of mine- Jeremy Rodney-Hall. He asked me prior to me cutting my hair and at the time I was all for it. Then reality clicked in. I was cutting my hair and taking out extensions; I started to doubt the outcome of the photo- shoot. I thought “Can I even work Short hair? …. this won’t go well." BUT I sucked it up
Thanks to everyone who remembered my Birthday. Around this time with the holidays, Christmas, boxing day, and New Years, having a Birthday isn’t the greatest. However, with loved ones that take that single moment to make your day special- it becomes worth while. I was amused by how many people don’t care or remember
…Or should I say, "Materialistic heaven on earth" ; Occurred today. I got to experience the day from both perspectives - Retail & Shopper. First off I’d like to make an observation: There were a lot of asian people …EVERYWHERE! They know a good sale. I said to myself, ”I’m just gonna get one thing”. We all know what that means. Before you know it I was
Why did I even decide to go on this “Oh-natural-my-own-hair kick.” It sucks. I look in the mirror with such disgust. Worse yet, I look on Tumblr & see 1 million pictures of girls/models with long over flowing hair and pretty faces. Ugh, Am I blaming tumblr for my lack of self-confidence; Or is Tumblr really a factor? I feel naked without my long luscious extensions.
As the days come closer to when I remove my extensions for good, my self-esteem continues to lower. I’ve never been so nervous about something. I feel like I’m gonna be a permanent ugly! I need to do this so I can love the skin I’m in….. BUT It’s soooo hard to accept!!
I want a life like Carrie & Fashion sense like Samantha. I’ve been watching the series since forever!! I adore their lifestyle in Manhattan. Now they are all grown up and successful. Carrie- the main character is a journalist ( like myself), she lives in a condo, with a Walk-in-Closet filled with designer apparel- Prada, Jimmy Choo, Chanel, Alexander McQueen, Dior… (just a few). She has an apartment, she attends when writing articles ( her solitude). I LOVE IT. In this movie she goes to ABU DHABI ARAB EMIRATES with the girls. LUXURIOUS. Adding to my Bucket List, I want to go to Abu Dhabi and live luxurious , the first class plane, hotel residence, restaurants, spa’s. Love it.
I am. It can be hard when you’re constantly hurt over again, scenarios repeat themselves or someone really disappoints you with no care in the world!! You tend to stop giving out 'Benefit of the doubts' & 'Second Chances’. A wall develops. What I need to work on is Forgetting- because Forgive&Forget work hand in hand. I remember the stuff that others have done to me therefore it hinders me.
I’ve decided to take a big step. For too long I’ve been hanging on - so that I can feel better about the way I look. Eventually I will have to accept the reality. Many people do this because they know it’s a temporary change & things will be back to normal in 6 months. However, I’m, doing it because I need to accept myself for who I am , embrace every part of me.